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Confessions [Feb. 27th, 2005|01:15 am]
The Polyphonic Me
Lord keep me tonight. Hold me in your arms. I am so weak and I feel so empty. Lord, how long has it been since you've been watching over me? For seventy some days I've seen Your light shine upon my life and have chosen sobriety over the hell that is for me drugs and alcohol. For almost fifty I've been denied the freedom of a car, yet found strength and perseverance in Your love to guide me through this hardship. I have been chaste for nearly twenty days during this season of Lent, so that all of my heart and soul might be with You, Lord. I am still so weak. I seek only You, God. To know You better, so that Your light may shine upon me and may illuminate my soul. Keep me.

But tonight is different, Lord. Tonight instead of fearing Your embrace, tonight instead of shying away from You, tonight I come to You in love. Tonight, instead of drinking, smoking, or fucking I surrender myself to You and ask that You hold me in Your grace. This is my confession, God. For Your ears, and for any else who may hear. I pray for those who hear me, those who would stop and stare, consider me mad. This is my confession. I am a Christian.

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WTF?! [Feb. 10th, 2005|02:00 am]
The Polyphonic Me
When you came to me that first time, God, O how I knew you! Your joy and splendour, everything it meant to be alive. I saw your miracles at work in my life everyday, and I thanked you for it. With my promises of devotion and commitment to you I praised you up and down. Everywhere I went you were with me. You helped me get back on my feet. O God, that summer you were to me like a lover, blissful and joyous and drunk with happiness. In your intoxication I grew a new life. And was just settled in, when everything became fucked.

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Foundation [Jan. 31st, 2005|01:37 am]
The Polyphonic Me
I pledged a fraternity for six weeks. That breaks down to approximately 42 days of utter and complete servitude to a group of people I knew almost nothing about. Other than that they liked beer pong, which, since I was an under-aged college male, I took a certain fancy to as well. And so, I took a certain fancy to them. Although I might talk down about it, I've never regretted my decision to pledge or to subsequently drop when I did. It's not that I was better or worse off for having done either. I felt at the time that I had gotten out of the experience what was to be had.

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Baby Steps [Jan. 29th, 2005|01:32 pm]
The Polyphonic Me
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[music |Le Matin - Haydn]

Every journey begins with one footstep. Winnie the Pooh said that... I think. In any case this journey is no different. Let's (or at least let me) start at the very beginning. All the way back to seventh grade when I resigned myself to the fact that to escape life's problems (read: puberty) I ought to read the Bible as it probably had something worthwhile to say on the subject of living. 2000+ years of testimonials had to account for something. I mean, I had witnessed from countless night spent up past the 2AM curtain of cable programming that people will believe juicers can save their life from a ridiculously eyebrowed septagenarian. Maybe there was something to this whole Christianity thing.

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First Fruits [Jan. 29th, 2005|01:44 am]
The Polyphonic Me
[mood |accomplished]
[music |Resounding Gong - The Toungues of Men and Angels]

Salvete Omnes. Welcome to the inner-workings of my mind and my deepest darkest passions. I was inspired to cross over fromm the tried and true "pen and paper" journaling method to the ever-popular weblog by my good friend and current housemate butterflydamage. So if I ever say anything insightful or inciteful you probably have her to blame. Well if you dont know me 1) I have no idea why the hell you'd be reading this and; 2)I should probably say something about myself to begin with. So I will:

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